My Love Won’t be Your Love

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My Love Won’t be Your Love

 

As I sit there listening, a million possibilities go through my mind. The sense of relief if it isn’t Henry, The pain I feel if it is, what I should do after she says the words. I have hope that the things I’ve been sensing aren’t true, that she can truly say it’s not Henry and I can move pass this. I don’t want to go through the drama or have Henry lose a friend in the process. “I’m not sure I’ve ever been in love,” said Lucy. A beep goes off and the ball lights up read. “Somebody not telling the truth, time to take a shot,” said Flora. As Lucy takes a drinks my hearts sinks, now all I have to do is wait for the words to come out of her mouth. “Now you have to go again Lucy, this time I can choose, I dare you to tell us who is the guy you love,” said Flora. For a moment there’s silence in the room as we wait for Lucy to speak. When Lucy finally comes to after drinking the fairy shot, she whispers something so low I can’t make it out. “Say it louder,” said Evelyn. “It’s Henry, it has always been Henry,” said Lucy.

 

I hear a gasp come out of every person’s mouth, right before the room goes dead silent. Suddenly I can feel everyone’s gaze on me as I stare at Lucy. What do I say, what do I do, suddenly I feel like I just enter a Kdrama but I’m not going to be the one who gets tricked out of losing my man. “I get you loved Henry but now that were getting married in a couple of weeks, that’s is the past right?” Asked Alex. Lucy hesitates to speak and stumbles as she stands up. “It’s not in the past, I love Henry and I know he loves me. He’s going to wake up and realize that you’re not the one for him. He’s going to realize that it’s me who has always been there for him not some stranger who just appeared out of nowhere,” Said Lucy.

“The love the Henry and I have for each other is something that you or anyone will never be able to change. I’m sorry that things turn out this way for you but I have no intentions on letting go of Henry, so I think you should rethink your future plans of Henry waking up and falling for you.”

Just keep calm, just keep calm, don’t let her see you freak out. I keep saying it over and over in my mind, anything I can do to not make me pull this girl’s hair out of her head. Lucy gives me the death stare then say, “We’ll see because I’m not playing nice anymore, I’m going after what I want no matter who is in the way. Henry will never marry you I’ll make sure of it.”

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The Truth is Coming . . .

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The Truth is Coming . . .

I’m so ready to get this over with; I know this is going to be one of the awkward moments in my life that I will always remember. I greet all the girls pretending that I’m so excited to see everyone. In reality I have this pit in my stomach, hoping nothing goes wrong. “This is so exciting a wedding planning party for the princess soon to be queen, I can’t say I ever imagined this happening maybe in my dreams but not in reality. I’ll be helping the princess of Forêt plan her wedding to the most gorgeous and dreamy guy,” said Sophia. “Yes, this is true Alexandria and Henry are a match made in the heavens, no one could be more perfect for each other,” said Flora. I feel this sense of hatred in the air and as I look at Lucy out of the corner of my eyes, I can see the anger on her face. I chose to ignore it this time and this time only. The girls settling in to the room and we begin our planning, first the dress.

 

It feels like I’ve tried on hundreds of weeding dresses but I haven’t found one that’s makes me feel like I’m actually getting married in a couple of weeks. I know I’m 18 but for some reason I don’t feel like a grown up. I’m about to have the weight of a world on my back and a husband but I feel like a child playing dress up. Some my call it innocence but I don’t know. Flora has the girls try on bridesmaid’s dresses and I instantly know which dress I want. A all black silk midi dress and all the girls look amazing in it. Even if Lucy looks good in that dress she will never be a bridesmaid in my wedding, after all I said I would invite her to this sleepover not make her a bridesmaid. “I think it’s time for a break, how about a game?” Asked Flora. “Yes, I know the perfect game, Truth or dare. I have the ball in my bag,” said Sophia.

 

“So the rules for truth or dare, for those of you who haven’t played. Are you must pick a truth or dare, if you pick a dare your dare must be carried out if it is not you will be punished. If you pick truth, you will be asked a question if you do not answer it truthfully the truth or dare ball will know and punish you. So lets input the punishment in to the ball. What do think it should be Alex?” Said Sophia. “Wait so that ball is able to tell if a person is lying and punish them?” Sophia nods her head and turns the ball on and it begins to hover in the air. “How about the punishment be a shot of fairy breath,” said Evelyn. “What’s fairy breath?” asked Alex. “It’s a drink with a hint of fairy power. It makes you feel like you flying and drunk at the same time, which isn’t the best combination but it’s a good reason to tell the truth,” said Flora.

 

“So first up is Sophia, truth or dare,” asked Evelyn. “Truth,” said Sophia. “Who is your crush?” asked Flora. “Mmmmmm that would have to be Thomas, he just so sweet and good-looking,” said Sophia. Great even more to worry about I still don’t know which one of Henry’s friends is bad so Sophia liking one of them doesn’t make it any easier, I definitely have to get close to Henry’s friends. “Trust me he’s not as sweet as he looks,” said Lucy. “Next up is Lucy, truth or dare?” Asked Flora. “Truth,” said Lucy. “Are you in love Henry?” Asked Flora.

 

 

 

A Girl’s Dream

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A Girl’s Dream

I’m truly excited, the last time I had a sleep over was right before we left Arizona, which I’ve been missing less and less lately. This world isn’t perfect but its home and I haven’t felt at home in a long time. Not belonging somewhere even when your surrounded by family is hard and very lonely. I really do miss my mom and sister but I’m sure their happy. My mom knows this is where I belong and my sister thinks I’ve found my father and I decided to live with him, which is true. The whole another world and being a princess isn’t exactly an easy thing to tell someone. Especially a someone like her who wouldn’t believe me anyways, she probably think I was insane and jealous of her to make up a story like that.

Flora has really gone all out for my sleepover/ wedding planning party; she has completely redecorated one of the castle’s guest rooms into every 12 years old dream. There’s a table full of candies, cakes, and so many ice cream flavors and the best part is the ice cream doesn’t melt. There are racks of wedding dresses for me to try on, an open bar and a huge screen for movie. I’m so happy to experience so many first tonight, watching my first Forêt movie, picking my wedding dress, and drinking with friends in Forêt.

“Flora you have out did yourself this room is beautiful.” “Thank you Alex, It’s nothing really I just had to get the floor removed to put down the softest fur carpet I could find, also I had to get 100% silk sheets for all the beds because I can’t sleep on anything less,” said Flora. “Right, I just hope everything goes well, I don’t know Lucy well and I’m just hoping nothing unexpected happens.” I really hoping I’ll get lucky and she won’t show up, and I’ll be able to tell Henry I tried. “Don’t worry I have your back and Sophia will be there to help. I almost forgot put these on, the girls will be arriving soon. Everyone is going to look so good in these custom pajamas, I had them all delivered earlier in everyone’s favorite color.

I go to change, as open the box I see beautiful silk, emerald-green pajamas. My favorite color I wonder how she knew, I love them, shorts and a long sleeve button up. It’s weird but it makes me realize that I’ve grown to love Flora in such a short time, how she knows me so well I’ll never know but I do know she’s a true friend. As I start to hear voices I know it is time to being the night and I know no matter what happens this will be a night I remember for the rest of my life.

 

A Night To Remember

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A Night To Remember

 

I lay in bed and think about the way Henry sees me, a queen, someone able to change this world. It’s scary but it’s also a wonderful feeling, to have someone believe in you so much. He makes me think I could actually do it, change the world someday.

A month at the academy, I’m happy to say I’m really getting the hang of this magic thing. I’ve perfected levitation spells, I can even teleport my jacket when it gets cold outside. Though I still think it’s going to take me a while to be able to teleport myself. I’m just proud the future queen is not last in her class. Combat has been a breeze with Henry and Francis there to help me and I even think that professor Stein is starting to grow on me.

“Hey Sophia, so I will see you at my place at 7, I can’t wait to have my first sleepover/wedding planning night”. I can’t believe I’m getting married in just two weeks. “Yes I can’t wait to see the palace from the inside. And even better I can’t wait to see you try on wedding dresses,” said Sophia! I know I’ve only know Sophia for a month but it feels like a lifetime, She just the complete opposite of me but somehow we have so much in common. She is so friendly, outgoing, positive, and she knows just what to say to get me out of my moods. I couldn’t ask for a better friend and the best part of her personally is she is loyal and trustworthy. Unlike some fake friends people I know have in their life. “You’re having a sleepover tonight how exciting, i’ll bring the nail polish and face mask, see you tonight,” said Evelyn. WHAT! Did she just really invite herself to my sleepover? I give Sophia a look of disgust as Evelyn walks away. “It’s fine, maybe tonight we’ll see something in Evelyn that we never seen, plus there’s no rule saying that you have to hate your boyfriends ex and she really wasn’t even an ex. On top of that the more the merrier, so don’t worry,” said Sophia.

“Yes the more the merrier that’s why I insist that you invite Lucy,” said Henry. There must be something in the water today because everyone was is going absolutely crazy. Evelyn just invite herself to my sleepover, when she knows I’ve been trying to ditch her for the past month and now Henry wants me to invite the girl that I have not said more than 5 words two seen I’ve known her. On top that she in love with him; she’ll probably try to murder me in my sleep. But if I tell Henry I don’t want her there then ill have to explain why I don’t want her there. On the plus side if she try’s to kill me or slashes my wedding dress, that will give me a reason to tell Henry to drop her. Maybe I can even get her to admit she likes him. “Fine Henry if it means that much to you she can come, tell her to be there by 7”.

Fairies Or The Fae

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Fairies OR The Fae

 

“Hey, how are you feeling?” asked Henry. Good, it’s really peaceful here. It’s a good place to think and I like to watch the fairies play. “There incredible creature, aren’t they?” asked Henry. “Yea, they seem so peaceful, like they haven’t a care in the world. I hope seem of that can rub off on me”. “Why don’t we take a walk and I’ll tell you a story about Foret’s magical creatures. “Said Henry. Henry holds out a hand to help me up, as we walk hand in hand, his fingers entangled in mines. Makes me feel like I’m home, I wish for a thousand more moments like this. Walking in Henry’s forest, holding his hand with bleu by our side. Like a normal couple living peaceful lives, even though I know there won’t be to many peaceful moments in this foreign land for me, I still can wish.

 

“The fairies didn’t always have this peace you see and today some still don’t. Many powerful spells require the wings of a fairy; witches go through the forest taking as many fairies as they can just to cast their spells. Many fairies have died and those who are still alive hide in the forest the best they can. But more and more continue to disappear, that’s why when ever I can I go to the forest with a couple of fairies and try to bring as many as I can here.Forêt is supposed to be a safe place for all magical creatures but there are dark people here that will do whatever they have too, to get what they want. There’s even a legend that if you consume enough fairies you’ll grow wings.” Said Henry. “But why hasn’t anyone did anything about it?” How could someone consume someone so beautiful and amazing? Something so pure and innocent, this world gets scarier and scarier by the day.

“It hard, the council that ruled while your father was away were biased, I’m sure many of them use fairies for their own needs and no one dared go against them. Even the fairies who are able to transform to human form won’t help.” Said Henry. “Wait all fairies can’t transform and why wouldn’t they help their own people?”

“Fairies who are able to change into human form consider themselves to be a different species than fairies. They call themselves the Fae, because they think there so above the fairies, they won’t help them. The Fae are even forbidden by their elders from mating with the fairies, they wouldn’t want to chance one of their own being born without the ability to transform so they just keep to themselves while the fairies are being slaughtered. That’s why I want you to be queen, I want you to change this world and make all the bad people go away. If there is anyone who can bring this world together it’s you, my queen.” Said Henry.

A Bit Unsteady

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A Bit Unsteady

 

I stare at the mural and see a peaceful and beautiful place where I don’t have to think about my problems. I place my hand on the wall and close my eyes, when I open them I see the world that Henry has created. I walk around trying to clear my head, looking at the deep dark wood of the tress and the astonishing green that fills this place. As butterflies and fairy creatures fly past me, I feel my heart start to feel safe I can relax. I sit in the forest watching the magic around me; I see the fairies build a house in a tree. Magically making objects appear, small beds, tools, and tables. Then one of the most beautiful of all the fairies brings me a bracelet. Even though she does not speak, I know that this bracelet is special. I thank her and watch as her beautiful sparkly blue wings fly away. I sit in the forest a little longer, as I start to fall asleep I feel soft warm fur brush across my face. When I open my eyes I see Bleu Henry’s wolf, I’m so happy to see him because he is such an amazing creature. Bleu is almost the same size as me yet he licks my face so playfully that I forget how scary he looked the first time a saw him. He lies in my lap and I’m happy because he is another piece of Henry that I get to know. As I pet him I decide to tell him about my dream wedding, about how beautiful I hope it will be, how I hope nothing will go wrong. “And don’t worry your definitely invited Bleu”. Bleu licks me again; I guess he would be honor to be at our wedding which honestly makes me feel a bit more steadied. To have someone who will be they’re for Henry no matter what, someone to keep him safe, someone who might be able to change the outcome of the future that I saw.

 

Bleu begins hollowing and my heart begins to race and my unsteady feeling start to come, I panic thinking that something might be wrong. Then Henry appears and I try to catch my breath and my tears before they start, because I’m not ready to tell Henry about my unsteady feeling about this wedding or us.

Our Future Or No Future

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Our Future Or No Future

 

I wake up and my heart is beating so fast that I can’t catch my breath. I wipe away the tears that have fallen from my eyes while I was dreaming. It just felt so real and it can’t be real, I won’t let it be, this can’t ever happen.

I’m knocked out of the memories of my horrible nightmare by the touch of Henry’s arms wrapping around me. I didn’t even realize where I am, but as I look around the room and see Henry’s beautiful mural of the forest, I know that I’m safe in Henry’s room. It puts my heart at ease to see this familiar place and to feel the warmth that radiates off Henry. I lay next to Henry feeling safe and at home yet I’m afraid to close my eyes. I’m afraid of what I’ll see if I do. Even thinking about it makes me want to cry. All I can see is Henry’s face as he falls to the ground, then the heartbreak, then the darkness. I turn to Henry he’s so beautiful sometime it’s hard to believe he’s real, to believe he’s laying next to me. Beautiful pale skin, dark copper hair, pink lips, he’s like a dream. A dream that I don’t want to disturb, I don’t believe that he’s somehow mix up in my crazy life. Why am I doing this to him, I keep telling myself it’s just a dream and it’s never going to happen but in my heart I don’t believe it. Do I tell Henry about my dream, do I keep it to myself. The fact that this isn’t my first time having this dream, do I tell him and darken our future together or do I keep it to myself and hope that it never happens.

I guess we rushed in so fast and fell so hard that it’s to late; I can’t help falling for Henry each day. I can’t help feeling that a life without Henry’s isn’t a life worth living. If I don’t tell him this could be our future but if I do tell him this could be the thing that tears us a part, the thing that breaks us. But isn’t it better for him to have a future without me then, to not have one with me?